The way it used to be

Digging deep beneath the roots
Trying to find all the truths
Wishing I hadn't done what I did
Wishing the truth I hadn't hid

Now I've let him slip and fall away
Won't be seeing him another day
I don't think there's anyway to change the past
My life's traveling by me way too fast

We had our good times more bad
we had our happy times more sad
Wanting more than I've received
Wanting the lies to be believed

Gosh I love him every time I think
Unwanted memories I want to shrink
What am I thinking when I lead this life
I wanted so much to be his wife

I hate not having him right here
I hate having our lives from each other veer
I miss being with you why did i mess up
Wish I hadn't taken a sip from your cup

If you hadn't been intoxicated
Or if I wasn't so dedicated
We wouldn't have had that night
And now we wouldn't be in a fight

All I want to do is be with you
And promise not tell you what to do
I feel ugly and hideous to your new girlfriend
And unlike you I didn't do anything with your best friend

Well it's OK, I'm still in the wrong
I'll be over you again in not so long
I'll always love the you I knew then
you didn't make me give up on all men

Maybe, just maybe we still got a chance
maybe, together we'll take one last dance
Until I find out all these what ifs
My heart will continue to do its flips