Just how i Feel

Eyes pierced by the suns sharp light
another day of torment has begun
how many more left, do i want to know
this day is going to be like the last
people wanting sex, cussing, drugs, cutting
great, why don't i just end my life
what is here for me other then pain
i might as well just seal my fate right?
or should i go on?
I'm not sure, these questions torture my brain
i just want it all to end
maybe if i try to forget my problems they will go away
but i could end it now, right here, with a quick pull
but i don't think i should, i don't want you to win
thats what you want isn't it, what you had in your mind
put Nick in a depression, let him slip away
guess again, I'm going to move on, and I'm going to live