Her notebook(a true suicide story)

I know the poem is long, but it's based on a true story.

Everyone would laugh at her
As she made her way
Rude remarks and painful things
They would always say

She never showed emotion
Never showed the hurt
She always got disrespect
Treated like she was dirt

She'd walk home quickly
Without a second look
Upstairs to her bedroom
Where she'd write in her notebook

"They still bother me
Nothings new today
They laughed at me some more
Always something horrible to say

They don't know how much it hurts
And I don't know what to do
It's not like I have someone there
Who can help me through"

She went to school again
And the same thing took place
They'd say all these horrible things
Right there to her face

She'd make her way home
With all these terrible things she took
Run up to her bedroom
And open up her notebook

"Today was a little worse
A little meaner everyday
But I just stood there and took it
I didn't know what to say

I held back all the pain
I held back all the tears
But shouldn't I be used to it?
It's been going on for 3 years

I guess some things never change
But why does it have to be me
It's not like I did somethings to them
The reason I just don't see"

Another dreadful day
This time one girl walked up to her face
Cursed at her a little
And left saying she was a disgrace

On her way home this time
She couldn't stand it anymore
The tears just kept on falling
On until she walked through her bedroom door

"I think today was the worst
She used to be my best friend
I can't believe she'd say that
When is this going to end?

I don't know what I did
Was it something that wrong
To put me through this misery
It's been going on so long!"

Two days later
She walked into her school
Knowing it would be same
Again she'd be made the fool

She tried to pretend that they didn't laugh
When staring right her way
She told herself it wasn't that bad
What they had to say

"It's no use, they'll never stop
Tell me what I should do
I can't take this happening
When will it be through?!

I tried to pretend it didn't hurt
But I felt the tears start to sting
I stood there watching them
Wondering what else life could bring"

She didn't go school the next day
She knew she couldn't make it through
Her old best friend started to feel bad
She wished there was something she could do

She went to the girl's house
Wanting to apologize
She really did feel bad
Her mistake she realized

She walked into her bedroom
And just stood there in awe
She couldn't believe what was there
Couldn't believe what she saw

She picked up the little note
That fell out of the girl's book
She opened it slowly
At took a very close look

"It's too much now
I can't go anymore
It's too hard for me
To even walk through that school door

Everyone always laughs
And there's nothing I can do
Maybe they would've stopped
If they only knew

But I can't say anything
Who can I tell
No one would understand
This life's a living hell

After mom had died
And dad left me all alone
That's when my best friend left me
To face things on my own

But I guess I can't blame her
Since she didn't know
Maybe if she did
She wouldn't have decided to go

But she found new friends
And she seemed to be happy
It would be selfish to take that away
It's just not me

It started to hurt most
When she began to laugh at me
Since once she was by my side
I don't know what's come to be

I walk into this house
Empty everyday
Then go to school
And take what they always say

But here is where it stops
This is the best way
To get rid of all this pain
And so none of it will stay.."

That's when the girl knelt down
With tears streaming out
She can't believe it's happened
And what it was about

She hugged the little girl
Now she understood the strife
But there's no reversing
The fact that she took her life...

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