Lifes questions

Each day the sun rises, shinning its light
shedding light upon each living creature, light to us all
but we need more then light- if we want to win life's fight
we all step onto the jagged rocks of forever
are we just setting ourselves up for a fall?

Friends aren't just friends anymore
we combine as one, like the moon and the sun
we grow feelings we may never have wished for
cross boundaries we should never cross
such innocence i had before this web was spun

the excitement of love - is it enough to get by?
the facing flutter of my heart
its what i live for, without it i would die
the many Grey shades i seem to think
how can love be good? if its tearing me apart?

such a lire it was- calling him my "DAD"
expecting forgiveness- after ripping out my soul,my heart, my core
how i wish we could return to what we had
but its over- pain clouds striking- hit by hit by hit
many things i wish, many un-changeable, many before

even my deepest dreams, deepest desires
can not even be scrapped into some kind of hope
so i just take the hits, pain, brought by lier's-
maybe one day I'll wake up and this will all be over?
but what really is on the other side?
could i cope?

but then again- maybe this is a dream?
is this reality we call life real
not be everything it seems?
maybe its not, maybe I'm not really living
one last check-
can i really feel?