If he was

If he was here than I'm sure we'd be together
like you , like me we braved the night of a windy Stormy weather

now your gone and now i have nothing left to say
i cant help but feel that you r still here today

you meant the world to be
i thought you were the one
and that you were joking when you said you took twelve the maximum was one

when i heard about you , shriveled ii and cried
and like many others around me
i wanted to curl up and die

the sacrifices you have made
your inner soul and depth
made you so much different
you were far special beyond the rest

i cant believe it happened
a little good boy like you
could turn out to be
the one i see
who needs others to get thru

i hope that you are safe up there
bouncing on the fluffy clouds
and i wonder if i can take after you and
take 12 if I'm allowed

now your away and not coming back
I'm right back to the start
and left where i was at 10 years old
alone with an empty heart

going on 14 i am
stroppy teenager maybe
but i hope that you'll remember the times
that were special, you shared with me

Young and old and old and young
life's will go and death has sprung
as you took one last breath in your lungs

I'm sitting here now
remembering the times we shared
and i cant bare a tear.but now waterfalls r falling flares

i will try and get on with my life
but one memory reclaims my fear
and that is of you smiling broadly
excitedly whispering in my ear

i laughed as you played with my hair
and laughed along with you
i laughed the way you smiled at me
and i laughed when i kissed you

it was meant to be
i knew that was to be
but I'll be waiting edgily
and one day you'll come back
you wait. you'll see