Feelings Deep Inside

I try not to think of you
Yet here u are circling through my head
I feel guilty for every thought I have
I know that you'd rather me be dead.
I liked u with all my heart
But to you it was only lust
I kept my word with everything
And now from u I've lost full trust.
I told you she wouldn't tell
Yet the rumors circles around
U wouldn't look or talk to me after that
I felt like i should be buried underground.
I lost her trust
As you have lost mine
I've tried with all my might to forget u
But you're still here inside my mind.
This loneliness has become stronger
As well as my inner pain
I try to hide my real feelings
But stronger ones are all i gain...

~Madison Leigh~ May 23rd 2005