Needing to know

For I know what everything means
Even if you never knew that today was my last day
But what did I mean; I have no clue
This is the day I need to know
Everything you ever thought me of
Could you have let me know, I wouldn’t be dying
If only you would have shown me you love
Would you have said I disgraced you?
Or that I never meant a thing?
Was this a wasted part of my life?
You never cared, a smile to me you would never bring
This is the moment I need to know
Tell me you thoughts of me
Could you do one thing I say?
Everyone else’s love I envy
They all have smiles upon their faces
Love and care is what they have, I need
Tears of you I cried over and over
Needing you for love, not greed
Tell me now; I need to know
Say these things I need to hear
Did you want me to end up this way?
Did you plan for me to live my biggest fear?
What you do to me I will never forget
Could I have known I wouldn’t be crying
Say it now; I need to know
I beg you please, please stop lying
Tears I’m sick of shedding
Now I see you will never say
Leaving this world with one thought
Would he have said if I told him it was my last day?

-this isnt all too well, but i know its good, but please vote and comment, i would appriciate it, thanx-