I Couldn't Stop Myself

It was just too much
The knife gleamed in the night
I could not help myself
I have to admit, I did not put up a fight

It felt too good
The blood was so red
I knew if I did not stop
I would soon be dead

I could not help myself
I could notmake myself drop that knife
It went deeper and deeper
Slowly taking my life

I dropped the knife, and I looked away
And guess what caught my eye…?
I saw a bunch of white pills
And I knew tonight I would die

I took them one by one
And started to feel some chills
I could not believe that I would die tonight
And that I would die from some pills

And yet I kept taking them
I lay back on my bed
My sheets are soaking up the blood
The once white, now red

I cry my last tears
Some red some clear
I hope that he still knows
In my heart he is dear

I slowly die
From broken skin and heart
I gave him all my love
And he decided to tear it apart

I take my last breath
And hold it
I want to die
And yet I didn’t

I let it out
And close my eyes
The last thought I had was all those I love you’s
Were really only lies