Remember Me?

*It's a little long, but please read and comment.*

To my real father ~

Hey there, remember me?
The daughter you helped to create?
The sister of your third son?
The ones that caused you internal debate?

I don't want to say I hate you
Or that you've ruined my life
Because I don't and you haven't
I just want to know if you're alright.

Do you still drink the bottle away?
Is there a new family to abuse?
How can you sleep at night?
Are the habits still there that you used?

Do you wonder how we've been?
Or how old we are?
Do you wonder how we do in school?
Or if Mom has lost her scars?

It's been hard for me without you
I've always thought I was a mistake
There's a chance you do think I am one
But that's a chance I'm willing to take

You've left more than physical wounds
I'm scarred deep inside
It's not ok that you've done this to us
But I guess it's all part of the ride.

We're ok, I'm still alive
Thanks for nothing, really
To ever have cared what you thought of me
Well, that was just plain silly

You can't hurt us anymore
No more than you already have
To me you'll always be my father
But it takes someone special to be a dad

I hope you sleep well tonight
With that bottle next to you
When you think about abusing us
About all you've put us through

We're better off without you
But in case you might care
We're alive and we're ok
Too bad you aren't here

You've missed us growing up
That's what you wanted, though
That's why you up and left us
With no where else to go

Now we have a real family
A daddy that would never leave
You used to be my hero
What a thought to now perceive

You never sent a single birthday card
No graduations will you see
Hey there, father
Do you remember me?