To Vanessa

One life comes too short
as another one begins
this is how the game goes
yet no one seems to win

so why were you chosen
why did you go
the question I always ask
and yet I still don't know

to see you gone
makes my heart melt
would you still be here
if you'd worn a seatbelt

this is an unanswered thought
that I'll never figure out
but we all learned from your lesson
at an unfortunate amount

I never got the chance
to tell you my goodbye
but now that you're gone
all I can do is cry

I still have our memories
that I'll never forget
my most fondest one
was the day we first met

I couldn't stop laughing
because you wouldn't let me
now my laughter is gone
my smile I cannot see

but now you're an angel
and that makes me smile
to know I still have you
around for awhile

but what do I do
when I lose a friend
what do I do
when my heart needs a mend

I'll never forget
about that day
it was on May 30th
when you went away

it was around noon
when I got a phone call
I could tell by her voice
that she wanted to fall

she said to me
"are you sitting down?"
right when she said that
my face began to frown

she said "you know Vanessa?"
I replied with a "yes"
"well something happened today"
"something you'd never guess"

"Sierra I'm so sorry
but Vanessa is dead"
right when she said that
I fell off my bed

when the phone call ended
I was worried for others
the ones closest to Vanessa
her friends, parents, and brothers

I called up her family
to see how they were
their house was full of tears
and memories of her

on Thursday June 2nd
my heart was so hurt
as I saw you in the casket
being lowered into the dirt

how does it feel
to leave the world so fast
not knowing those five minutes
would be your last

my attitude has changed
on my views of life and death
every second I live
I wonder if it's my last breath

It's been four long days
and I know you're not returning
but many minds remember
many heart's still burning

so I wrote this poem
in memory of you
because I miss you Vanessa
and "I love you too!"