Not this time

NOT THIS TIME

No not this time not this place
Leave me alone. I am not listing
To you cries no more. You don’t
Help the pain you only cause
More leave me alone, your not
My friend. A friend would never
Leave me here to bleed leave me
Here to cry or give me another
Scare I must hide or make me lie.
You’re the blade and I am the push
With out me your nothing at all.
So give up this time I am not going
To give in I did that once and broke
My own heart within. I don’t plan
To again put my self thought that
Pain was one of my biggest sins.
And even though I crave you and
The calls get louder in my head and
My body yearns for some kinda feeling
To feel within. But I will fight my
Self for I know what I want to do is
Wrong I know it’s not right. But I cant
Help it if the blade is calling me all through
The night. But I wont let it win not
This time not this fight.

~Ashleigh~