I know I said ...

I know I said "Never Again"
But if Could just have one last time
One more chance to fix myself
Lay it all on a blood red line

I know I said "I Promise"
But these words are beating me to death
I'll make time stop for a moment
I won't waste a breath

I know I said "I'm Fine"
But such easy lies so often spill
I swear I never meant to hurt you
I'm such an empty void to fill

I know I said "I Won't"
But pain laid the razor into my palm
I couldn't turn it down, no chance
I couldn't be rational or calm

I know I said "I'll Try"
And I'm doing as best as life admits
My motivation is in your threat
But the craving's never lift

I heard you say "I Care"
But you left, you're not around
So no one's here to stop me
There's no incentive to drop this down.

------ksfhfjdzg