Just someone who died

Sitting on the bathroom floor
in so much pain
she took the knife from the drawer
cold and shamed

holding the knife in her hand
her mind was set on hate
no one will ever understand
how she wants someone to take her place

slicing down the line of death
living her life a lie
so many lies she didn't confess
tears fell from her eyes

praying this was the last of her life
hoping shed take her last breath
sick of using the worthless knife
she was such mess

holding her hands over her eyes
ready for the last
this will be the day she dies
she'll always remember the past

she was nothing but happy now
she made her final decision
this was the last day
her name would be mentioned

no one would care anyways
not even the guy she loved
and every single day anyone lived
her no one would be thinking of

damaged and lonely inside
but she would make the last the best
no more secrets will she hide
this death she already had blessed

screaming in her empty mind
only focused on this ending
she saw the light her sight was blind
she started her new begging

now she was dead
its not your fault she died
the last words she had said
was i love you all and good-bye

her suicide note read:

I'm already dead on the inside
but this was the best for you all
no one really cared anyways
i couldn't stand tall

I'm sick of being someone i hate
I'm sick of all my lies
I'm sick of hiding all the scars
I'm sick of "praying" to die

i no when your reading this
you could really careless
and the knife this time when i used it
was the hardest Ive ever pressed

while you all taunted me
i began to start death plan
I'm sure when you read all these words
there hard to understand

but I'm stating the details clearly
and the uncials on my arms
are only for those who made me depressed
from all my suicidal harm

but mom i have to say
i love you to death
none of this was your fault at all
I'm just a f**king mess

theres no where this story can end
you will have to tell it to yourself
I'm not here to tell you the rest of my story
I'm sorry you couldn't help

i just felt like someone different
someone who was always used
someone who stood out to much
someone really confused

and as your reading this by my body
i want to be buried with my knife
its what helped me make it this far
from my useless life

but i love each and everyone of you
this is the rest of who i am
this is the last of Sabrina you'll be able to see
maybe now you'll understand

look beneath my dead open eyes
from all the times Ive been hurt
from everything i tried to hide
my life was worthless