Love or Friendship?

Me and my friend Josh
We're still friends I think
But
I have this huge crush on him
Since the beginning of the year
I love him so much
Then 2 weeks ago my partner for camp...
She became his friend.
She became his friend and he seems to care about her more than me....
How could he when I poured my heart out to him this entire year?
Then today we all practiced waltzing
My other friend dared me to ask him,but I couldn't,because his 'new' 2-week friend swept him away. I love him. And I don't want to hurt my friend.
But I'm a selfish person, though kind.
Now I am more kind than selfish. I let her have him.
I can't have something that doesn't even want me to have them. They say if you love someone you can let them go.
Well,I know you're out there somewhere Josh.
I want you to know I let you go.
I let go of everything about you.
Tomorrow we won't be that close.
I won't be able to love you as much.
Because when I gave you my unbreakable heart
You twisted it till it -did- break
Now I am tired and painful
I want to be your friend
But also
more
Now its too late
And I can't feel my heart
You made me more depressed
As I type this
I want to let you know
That for as much as I'm your friend
Its 3 times that which I love you
and 6 times that which I want you to be mine
I want you to know this as I stop.
I still
think
I won't be able to stop

Loving you....
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This is a true poem about thursday... please comment and tell me whether to ask him out or not...