Problems

I tried to end with my life
for all the problems i have
sometimes i pray that god takes me away from this miserable life.
i have too much things
that i wish to let out but it's hard.
i cry and cry to see if it goes away, but that feeling it's still inside.
people tell me to be strong,
but it's too much,
i'm going through a lot.
they say my heart is on hold
but i don't understand.
i wish to die in this single moment,
but i know a lot of my love ones will be hurt,
so i just try to be normal and be happy, but deep inside i'm hurt.
i smile and talk like if nothing is going on,
but my heart aches because i'm trying so hard.
i feel that i can't take it anymore and that some day my life is going to end.
but before that happens i want to let people that i love know that i left this world because i was suffering a lot, and i couldn't take it anymore.