How do u do that? (Cutting)

I cant help it
im out of control
i know i shouldn’t
but i have a goal

i know it will leave scars
and i know people will get suspicious
but i have to, i need to

this is my therapy
when i see blood
when it gushes out

suddenly
i start to calm down
it works
just like that
it makes me calm and calmer

i know i might be crazy
but then so are u
no ones cares about me
so why should u?

i hate myself
i no i do
but some how u still love me
through and through

how do u do that
no one can
no one can ever love me till the end

i cant believe it
i still wont
i don’t believe u love me so

and when i feel u don’t
so ill just say don't love me so
and ill go run, and hide
and ill cut for a while

i do love u
i know u don't
so stop telling me u love me so

please just let me be
stop asking why
i just want to be alone

i know i shouldn’t but i still do
i cut and cut
that's all i do

u tell me that's bad
and u make me promise
how do u do that?

u make me smile
when i don't want to
u make me laugh
when i don't feel like it

how do u do this
how do u make me love u
how do u make me promise

how did u get me to stop cutting myself?