Dying In These Wishes

Lying on the floor
Staring into nowhere
Wishing for this feeling
To magically disappear

I’ve fought it so many times
But it’s an unbeatable fight
Something always goes wrong
Nothing ever goes right

Trying to smile became a chore
My occupation was to pretend
So that no one would notice
Not even my closest friend

But failing is what I’m best at
And so give me an F
Because I am so weak now
That there is barely anything left

I still keep dreaming and hoping
That everything will be okay
Everything will be all right again
It is the same thing everyday

But if people don’t take a second look
They’ll never notice what I have to hide
So my secret is safe with me
Slowly dying, and always lying