Endless Pain

I'm sitting here
On my bed
Slitting my wrists
To quiet my head

Tears are gushing down my face
But I don't make a sound
I'm not crying because of my wrists
But because I feel more than down

My heart is aching
My body is shaking
My head is breaking
Soon I'll start faking

I will start faking
That I am happy
But deep down
I really feel cr*ppy

I am dying slowly
From my endless pain
Now I am running
Away from all the shame

I hate myself
The way I think and act
I hate the way I look and feel
I don't want to be...That

When you asked me,
Are you crying?
I wasn't being true
Because really I'm dying

I've had enough of all the pain
I've had enough of being me
I've had enough of playing this game
Can't you see my misery?

I'm not strong enough
To live in this world
I'm nothing but a pathetic person
An ugly, lesbian girl