Why didnt you tell me:its all my fault.:*.::.

I guess i never realized this
before today i cried
i thought that it was just them
that stabbed me in the back
i guess i got what i deserved
because i now realize
i don't deserve
anyone as a friend
i might be distracted
with myself and who i am
i hate myself
not that i know
I'm the worst of us all
i hurt everyone
in the long run today
i wish that i can take it back
but i know i cant
i make more people cry
than i cry about
is that all our group is
is the silent tears
i never wanted to hurt someone
like i did today
i wished someone
would have helped me
before its now to late
i made everyone pis sed off
at one point or another
I'm sorry i don't deserve to live
since all i can say is I'm sorry
the words behind the back
i thought was just you
but i did it more than anyone
since no one could see through
I'm sorry that i lied
and that i cut my pain away
i just want to die alone
since only a bad friend i am
i cant stand looking
at myself anymore
i want to cry alone
in the dark corner
of the silent room
because i cant stand me anymore
I've become the person
I've always hated
i cant stand it anymore
I'm sorry that i made u cut
and I'm sorry that u cried
i just wish you would
see though the mask
to forgive my inner soul