Daddy Why?

Daddy why did you do that to me?
I was so afraid
But you kept telling me it would be alright
As you slipped into bed beside me.

You said i had been naughty
That i needed to be taught a lesson
And after a while i believed that
It was easier to accept than the truth.

Yet now years later
It's hard for me to trust anyone
I have to many defences now
All because of you

You used to have me terrified
A scared little child
Powerless to stop you, i could only cry
And even though only young i just hoped to die.

That feling wouldn't go away
Instead it grew with me
Mom used to wonder why i cut myself
But i couldn't bear to tell her and you just didn't care.

Whenever i came close to telling someone
You would always be there to stop me
Instead i was forced to keep quite
And continue to carry my pain

But as they lower your casket into the ground
I feel deep satisfaction
Because as i hide behind my mask as i was always forced to do
No-one suspects that it was ME who ended your evil
ME who finally won against you!

note: this DIDN'T happen to me