Raining Inside

I'm too depressed to cry,
too numb for words.
oh god please tell me why
my life is so absurd?

it hardly feels fair...
and its just seems wrong.
they haven't a care
for my sad song
that i play with this blade...

i do have a savior,
that furlongs my thriving here.
he promises me forever
a life with little fear

but they're trying to take him too
by forbidding me from his presence.
they know our love is true
full of bright and angelic pureness.

i still call him everyday,
which for now can get me by.
though how long can i live that way?
with out his love going dry?

hoping for that day to never come
i just lay here to ponder.
throughout me becoming numb...
will i be here much longer?

how strong is my cover
shielding me from this storm,
kept by knight in shining armor,
my "god's" heroic form.

i guess I'll someday see
if his love just isn't show,
or wether we were meant to be.
but...i think i already know...

Jarret i love u so much thanks for always being there nd giving me a shoulder to cry on i miss your touch nd your eyes.....i miss all of u so much!!!