Pointless struggle

Talk around me
Talk straight through me
Ignore every word i say
Never see me
Look right over me
Like I'm a small window pane.

Don't hear my words
Change my words
Try to change my ways
By forcing my words
Making my words
So I say what you want me to say.

Invisible I am
Pointless I am
I mean nothing to you
Harmless I am
Boring I am
I just can't see the use

Every day I try
Why do I try?
To make you hear my voice
Why don't you try?
Why does anyone try?
To be heard over this noise.

I want to shout
I long to shout
To have my say to you
So here i shout
I do, I shout
Baby I'm screaming at you

To just let go
Please let me go
Stop controling me
If i can't go
If you don't let go
I'll starve again you see.

I just won't eat
I'll hate to eat
I'll forever be feeling sick
I'll never eat
Never want to eat
Because I'm anorexic

It's not my fault
You've done this
My doctor knows
It's control I miss
But if you go
I'll need you back
And it'll be you, not food i lack.