Dad, why?

My story does not start,
With once upon a time
My life is not a fairytale,
Where no one’s left behind

The tale I have to tell
Begins one dreary, lonely night
When mommy came in
And she turned off the light

I heard daddy’s footsteps,
As he ran up the stairs
I heard mommy scream
And wished I was not there

I could hear him beating her
And I could feel her pain
And I could feel her fear,
Because to me he did the same

Then mommy fell silent
I prayed she was not dead
I heard him coming closer
As I sunk down in my bed

I saw the doorknob turning
No one heard my silent screams
I saw him stagger forward
Like a nightmarish dream

I knew that he’d been drinking,
Out with all his friends
Just so he could have some fun,
I have scars that will never mend

Why is this happening?
I’m just a little girl
I know what’s coming next
I have been through this before

But this time it was different
He pulled out a knife
I was frozen with fear
He was gonna end my life

He started to stumble,
And fell down to the floor
I did not have much time,
I ran for the door

I saw mommy lying there,
In a pool of her own blood
A crimson lake of sadness
Created by someone she once loved

It took all of my strength,
To keep running on
But then I thought of mommy,
For her I would stay strong

I made it outside,
Where it began to rain
But it just made me run harder,
To erase all of my pain

Then I heard the gunshot
And felt pain from every side
There was nothing left to do
Nowhere else for me to hide

My eyes started getting heavy
I was just to weak
I will not get up again,
From my eternal sleep

Late into the night,
The sirens finally cried
Both of us were gone
But daddy’s still alive

They found mommy first
Just another drunken fight
They have seen it all before
But that does not make it right

Hours later after searching,
They found me in the woods
“it’s too bad she did not make it”
I never thought I could…

Because a nightmare always followed me
And inside I knew,
That I never would escape
And that nightmare, dad, was you