Sitting here again
my head in my hands
a tear trickles down
I promised myself
this wouldn't happen again
but nothing hurts me more
than hoping for something you can never have or hold
something i only dream about
realities such a brutal truth
sitting alone in a crowded room
looking for the closes window or door to climb out to
take a deep breath
as the pain fills my lungs
then let go of every person
that hurt my heart that hung
always above the emotional mess
away from human feeling
alone with love, lust, and bliss
all locked up in a small dark room
making friends with shadows
that always tend to loom
every part of me so innocently lost
questions unanswered
no one bothered to pay the cost
of trying harder than the rest
to unlock my lonely heart
for now i will sit and ponder on this
as the shadows fade to dark
