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Sometimes I feel
Without a doubt alone
With now where to go
Nowhere to call home.

Like nobody cares
In what I do or say
Yet I lie to them
To get through my day.

My life’s just a lie
And no one knows
My feelings inside
And how they grow.

I hate myself so
But carry on to live
But feeling so worthless
With nothing to give.

My head is so full
With the rules of this life
“Never do that”
And “always think twice”.

Think twice about what?
This feeling inside,
The feeling that one day
Could drive me to suicide?

That hole in my stomach
That aches to be filled
Yet no one cares
And no one ever will.

That deafening scream
That no one hears?
Or the nights I sat and cried
Poured crimson tears?

Right now I feel broken
Quite beyond repair
And all you can do
Is sit there and stare.

Stare at this girl
So young and naïve
Who questions herself
With why she didn’t leave.

That girl who smiles
And puts on a brave face
To show the rest of the world
That she’s okay.

The insecure girl
Holding herself back
Scared to let them see
All the things she did lack.

These words are but nothing
Just a simple release
They sum up nothing
Yet they will never cease.