My Once Best Friend

I was always there
But you never saw
And one day I'll leave
Then you'll miss me.

I may be known as one of the guys
But I'm a girl with feelings deep inside
I want you to care for me, to notice me
I'm more than a best friend to you, can't you see?

Whenever you were down
I always cared.
Whenever you needed help
I was always there
When times were tough, we stuck through
Like best friends should, I thought you knew?

But I guess this friendship that we had
Meant more to me than it meant to you
You brushed me off like a fly
And took your place on the popular side

At school I was laughed and teased at
Having 'kick me' signs on my back
You never came to help me
Just walked right by me like you didn't see.

How could you throw away what we had?
Did you enjoy seeing me sad?
I remember how it use to be
When we shared our fears and delights
You were so close to me
Oh....how can I make things right?

Should I change my looks?
Should I lose some pounds?
Should I go blonde?
And turn my whole life around.

I will always be there, from beginning to end
But you shall never know
And by the time you comprehend
You'll know that you were too slow.

I'm fading like a falling star
Going out like a drunken cigar
I try once more, to be your friend
But my attempts go in vain and I'm friendless once again.

Soon I'll be gone and then you shall see
Of all the pain you inflicted upon me
I swear to the Gods that one day you'll pay
Come crawling to my grave, praying that I forgave....

I was always there
But you never saw
And now that I'm dead
You miss me as a friend.

© Angie K