Mother

Many years ago you brought me into this world,
You could not hide your smile when they told you that your new bundle of joy was a baby girl.
The first day back from the hospital you were as happy as can be,
And no matter what, you knew that you would love your first born unconditionally.

My baby book was full and I was spoiled with lots of love and attention,
As soon as I learned those emotions I showered you back with the same affection.
I understand now that all you have ever wanted was the absolute best for both us kids,
And even though I brought you many disappointments I am glad you were always able to forgive.

The moment I fully understood my role as a big sister I took it very serious,
Preschool was the first separation from you that we really had to experience.
The first day of grade school I did not want to leave your side,
You told me everything would be just fine and I trusted you because I knew to me you would never lie.

Fond childhood memories of our backyard on long, humid summer days,
Cooling off by running through the sprinkler trying to hide from the sun’s hot fiery rays.
Swimming lessons helped us conquer our fears of the water,
Afternoons spent playing board games and cards with your son and daughter.

Mad dashes to get home from work and feed us kids so we would make the beginning of our soccer games,
You happily did all these things plus many more and never once complained.
I appreciate every miniscule thing that you have done for me even though I didn’t know how to express myself during those times,
I broke your heart over and over again and that is worse than any crime.

During my teenage years I was not always on my best behavior,
But whenever I got in to trouble you were always there to be my savior.
You had the confidence in me to know deep down the life I could have,
Though I did not believe you at the time after a long detour I think I have finally found that same path.

We never did see eye to eye on very many of the same issues,
When I reacted without thinking spitting out those cruel words I hope I did not leave you emotionally bruised.
Blinded to see the trouble that came with being unable to admit any of my flaws,
Looking back now I can see the irreversible damage that I caused.

Even though I started hanging out with the wrong crowd,
I did not always follow their ways because I am an individual and for this you should be proud.
But my rebellious actions were my own because no one could ever peer pressure me to do what I did not want to do,
When I was younger I saw the world from a different point of view.

Now that I have grown our relationship can improve with the trust that has been rebuilt,
I no longer carry around the shame of being a disappointment as I have learned to let go of the guilt.
Our relationship is at its best but the challenge is not yet over,
More improvements are still yet to come once I get a little older.

I have always and will always love you with all of my heart,
No matter how many times we may have to make a fresh start.
For I know you are the only one, who will always be there for me no matter what the circumstance,
To trust anyone else as much as I can trust you would be taking too much of a chance.