Shattered Reflections

Devour my pride from my torn heart,
Take my conscience and tear it apart.
Shelter me from the unwanted things i feel,
Broken and shattered wings that cannot be real.
Images and illusions fill my lonesome mind,
Tearing apart my thoughts and leaving them behind.
Bad memories now consume my head,
Wondering if lies are the only thing you said.

Heartache inside shown only with tears,
Completely hidden inside all of these years.
Old scars have formed on my heart and wrist,
All made from reasons with a big twist.
So devour my heart, soul and pride,
No longer in you can i confide.
Your heartbroken words finally left me in tears,
Laying on the floor by this shattered mirror.

This mirror holds the broken reflection of m life,
Maybe the pieces will show you my strife.
Torn thoughts now consume the real me inside,
But no long here can i hide.
I'll take these tears and them i will not show,
Because your thoughts about me, i will never know.
Broken hearts and shattered lives,
All kept here in deep disguise.

But don't judge me for the way i might be,
This person on the outside is not the real me.
Fake smiles, lonely tears and stupid lies,
Are now my life, no longer in disguise.
I'm pleading now, just please let me be,
But how can this person still be the real me.
Fake smiles are shown and tears now brim my eyes,
My only thoughts now are "why do i try?"

Why do i try to please everyone around me,
Nobody else just seems to see.
See the heartache and all the lies,
Hidden behind my dark blue eyes.
The ones that cry tears that stream down my face,
Yet no emotion can you seem to trace.
So leave me here to die completely broken,
Because of all the words yet unspoken...

~Madison Leigh~ June 15th 2005