I'm sorry, I'm sorry i scream
but no one can hear me
people are surrounding n screaming
i try to talk back but it doesn't work
they are getting blurry
I'm slipping away
i need help now,
my eyes shut,
the next day I'm laying on my bed not sure how i got here,
so i get up and walk up stairs,
walk in the kitchen and see,
my sister won't look at me,
she won't even eat,
my brother smoking so much,
my dad sitting there without a smile,
i look for my mom i can't see her,
i walk into the living room,
and i see her,
i run over to ask whats going on,
she can't hear me,
so i yell,
no one is answering me,
and i start to cry,
but i stop and look up,
and see her crying,
i try to tell her its Kay,
but she can't help it and tears are dripping down her face,
faster and faster each minute,
and stands up and runs into her room,
I'm not understanding this,
how come no one can hear me,
i have to go to the bathroom,
so i walked up stairs,
the bath tub is full of redness,
it looks like blood and water,
i look up theres a rope its been cut,
I'm very confused I'm trying to understand,
i turn around and everyone is wearing black,
so i follow them,
we stopped at a funeral place,
I've been here once for my grandpa,
i miss him,
over the next hour i see so many people i know,
my friends, family, aunts, uncles, cousins and my grandma,
everyone is wearing black i wonder who died,
so i walk over to the coffin to see who their surrounding,
its its its...me,
flash backs hit me so fast,
the water is blood,
because thats the night everything in my life went wrong,
i grabbed a razor and slit,
went into the bathtub,
filled it with water,
i changed the color,
i killed myself,
because i made a promise i couldn't break,
she died and asked if the promise was true or just a lie?,
so i did it for her,
i died two days before Christmas,
December 23rd 2005,
but yet i was Ur September baby girl,
i understand now,
i know where i am,
a choice i wish i never made,
i miss my life,
my friends, my family, and relatives, i miss it all,
i wish i would of stayed,
I'll meet with you all so soon,
me and her are gone now, s
side by side,
like we always been,
not much has changed,
Ur mistake is finally gone,
and u don't have to regret anything anymore,
i left you should be proud,
that you never have to deal with me again,
i love you all forever and always but now I'm gone,
be proud.....
