I feel the night
When I held you under the stars
Drifting further
Into my minds memory
It proves me wrong
For the first word that came to mind
When I thought of your name
Was \"Always\"
Are you happy
With what has come of us
I’m leaving
Is this what you wanted all along
Or was it something else
Did you love the fact that I would wait forever
Did you feel safe knowing
That this love I have for you could never die
It won’t
Never will I let go of the memory of you
I’ll remember
That you killed the hope that kept me here
I’ll spend my nights
Thinking of how I could have held you
Or think instead
How he will be holding you now
I’ll die
To smite the happiness you feel
I’ll remind you
Of everything you put me through
All the things
That I did to you are the only reason I can find
But everything
I’ve done for you is meaningless
I was never perfect
No where near anything that could be mentioned with the word
But my thoughts lied
As I thought we were
These words were not put together in order
To reminisce of the memory of you and I
Rather a symbol
Of the hate that I’ve began to form
For a love
That has killed me every night
This is your fault
And it’s mine
But you could have changed everything
Instead you’ve decided to be with another
Again
Despite the fact
That you knew it would tear me down
You knew all along
While you were holding his hand
That I was unknowing
Misunderstood
I was a fool of hope
But no longer
Through all of this
I hope you’re happy
With what you’ve done to me
And what I’ve done because of it
