Painful Life Of Me

A mother that's too controlling,
A dad who's barely there,
Brothers and sisters all over the place,
A family who doesn't care.

A diary to keep all of my secrets,
A blade to relieve my pain,
A pen to write down my feelings inside,
As suicidal thoughts are all I gain.

A best friend who's always there,
To help me through my thoughts,
A shoulder to cry on every day,
When these tears always come a lot.

A wall to hide all the lies,
A fake smile to please a friend,
A notebook filled with thought out words,
Of how I can possibly mend.

A word to cleverly deceive,
A promise to already break,
A lie said here and there,
Is more than I can take.

A poem to explain everything,
A life I just can't understand,
A family that's so broken,
No one to lend a helping hand.

A house to now go home to,
Where broken memories are all that remain,
A girl who's trapped in suicidal thoughts,
Where in her mind there's nothing left but pain.

Then I look around,
I've come back to reality,
A tear streams down my lonely cheek,
Revealing the painful life of me...

~Madison Leigh~ June 30th 2005