Wake up in Hell

I keep waking up confused
Wondering how I woke up in Hell.
What did I do to deserve this
After dreaming of a better life?

How do I wake up
To a family that loves me
That adores me?
A family I want nothing to do with.

How is it, that every day
I find myself in this big house
With a room just for me?
A room that disgusts me.

i find myself
Begging for trust
Surrounded by friends
Surrounded by family.

I long for solitude
Alone in my world
While loneliness sets in,
And life is drowned out.

When I dream
I dream of home,
What most call "Heaven"
And wake up in Hell.