Five months since goodbye

Five months and I just cant let go
I miss how it was good you made me show
I still daydream of when I was true
and all my thoughts revolved around you
remember the food fights we'd have at work
back in the day, when I wasn't a jerk
I loved the nights we'd lay on the couch
all night long in my arms you'd slouch
we'd play cards and I'd stare in your eyes
I knew you weren't cheating, they were lies
I just loved to look into your soul
to make you smile was my goal
I can see so clearly when we said goodbye
we held all nite, we saw each other cry
when I gave you the news you said don't go
but to be a Marine, I couldn't say no
so it was memories of you to boot camp I took
all the dreams I had I could fill a book
I was so nervous when I was out and gave you a call
but I cried cause your feelings hadn't changed at all
I thought forever that we'd be united
but tragedy struck that wasn't foresighted
and I did something I said I never would
I wish to take it back, I wish that I could
I lost you forever, you never turned around
and now in this sorrow I still drowned