Loneliness, does it go away?

God if you could only hear me
screaming at the top of my lungs
loneliness, happiness, lost
its all that leaves me alone

where do i go
where do i start
where do i pretend
i dont have a broken heart

when am i real
when do i cry
when do i give up
lay down and die

is it worth
this frustrated mess
these tears of pain
and just plain emptiness

you will never see the hurt
you will never see my tears
you will never see how much i like you
and how id give u a chance and pass the beer

i just want something real
something i can touch
taste and feel

something that leaves me begging for more
something that heals
all my broken sores

my bloody mess
of thoughts, emotions, and bliss
does make sense
does it work out in the end
is there a plan I'm not focusing in

should i make it tomorrow
or give up today
is everyone that loves me
worth the one that left me this way

does it all melt down
does it all get better
someday somewhere
will my hope finally flutter

away from this cold
dark hole in my heart
the pieces laying naked
as i stand still all torn apart

i can make it
with my small heart beat slow
i can make it alone
just believe in myself and go

thats how i try
thats how i see
every part of hurt in my life
push far away and be free

let it go
let it be
god will help me
one knee praying to thee