Blame myself

I cant help but blame myself
for all the pain I felt
I set myself up for the fall
My fault I lost it all
I knew I was wrong
and now your gone
Black tears burn my heart
Knowing that you and I part
I look back remembering everything
like our long talks and the way we were kissing
but I lost that
No chance of getting it back
I wish I could go back to
a time when I was holding you
But I gave that up
Going through this breakup
I'm giving up on trying to make it work because
It will never be like it was
We were great
But it wasn't fate
Because if it were
I would have f**ked up for the better
I caused all the pain I feel
and the pain is real
I know in the end we have to turn to our selfs
So I cant help but blame myself