Forgetful breathing

Trying to hide how I feel isn't working this time
My pain is coming out for everyone to find
My head spins remembering the past
Wondering why the smile never lasts
Shattered memories are all that remains
Im left with only sliced veins
Im holding onto what you said last time you were here
Worries that its the last I'll hear
Alcohol breath, bloody heal
Staring at the cuts loving the pain i feel
Poison kisses, loaded gun
Passion hearts break for fun
Feeling invincible wanting to hurt more
Slowing breath, hitting the floor
Death is a wish kissing me softly
Writing this letter, saying goodbye thoughtfully
Last breath last sip last time I blink
I miss you Im sorry last thought I think