What pushes you through?!

Tears behind a smile
i seem to be doing this
more than once in awhile

trying to fight
the pain someone else has given
trying to be perfect
and unreachable in heaven

but honestly my hearts
laying on the ground
it's the thing everyone's walking on
and walking through

no one's stopped to ask
no one's stopped to see if I'm alive
no one but my friends
have made me smile deep inside

i push for a laugh
with a glistening tear
holding back the emotion
that could ruin everything here

no one to blame
no one's fault
life is a struggle
and can tear you apart

but give up you can't
it's the one's who love you the most
that will miss your smile
your perfect in perfection
just give life awhile

maybe a breath
away from pain
maybe cry for an hour
maybe you'll win this battle unnamed

maybe if i just sit still
i won't feel any thing
maybe if i forgive
i can begin to heal what life brings

i can make it
i can make it through alive
i can make it through these lies
and these insane lullabies