Because...

I always said I was trying to stop.
I said I was trying not to pop.
But I don't think I was.
People say they'll try, but no one really does.

I put down the blade for a little while.
Tried to not feel vile.
But I wanted again to feel.
It sounds stupid but I wanted to feel real.

Without cutting I felt incomplete.
I felt as if I lay in defeat.
I didn't feel victory when I sliced my skin,
But I didn't feel the pain within.

I never thought tears would fall from your eyes.
You saw through my "I'm trying!" lies.
At least this much is true:
I never meant to hurt you.

When you asked me why,
It was all we had not to cry,
There never really was
a reason for Because...