Dear Shane, Part II

Dear Shane,

There's this feeling in my stomach,
It isn't right.
I feel as if I'll get sick.
I don't eat for fear that I might.

I crawl into my bed
Staring at your drawings on the wall.
This little voice inside my head
Is saying this isn't right at all.

I know I was trying to protect you from me.
At least that's what I wanted to believe.
The truth is clear to see.
That was a lousy way to deceive.

I was afraid of hurting you,
Because I liked a guy.
So I decided what I'd do,
Is just say good-bye.

I want to know what you're thinking
at this moment in time and space.
Is it about when I sing?
Do you picture my face?

I picture you.
It makes me feel different.
Happy, sad,&angry too.
I feel like you shouldn't have went.

At least not alone.
I should be there.
We can't even talk on the phone.
The truth is I care.

I want you to stay,
I want you to leave.
I want this to be ok.
You are who I want to believe.

I'm still confused.
Why would she lie?
My heart's being abused.
My motto: If you lie- It's good-bye.

Do I stick to what I believe in?
Or do I believe what you say?
Does this battle ever end?
I want it all to go away.

I will write to you
until you come home.
but don't do as the Romans do,
When in Rome!

*part three will be up very soon plz give me some feedback on this and vote i promise to return the favor!xox