Secret

Do you wanna no a secret
that Ive never told before
about my special way
instead of falling to the floor

if you wanna no just tell me
ill share it with you i promise
ill let you see the real me
and how I'm not the strongest

its my deepest and darkest secret
the one Ive never let anyone see
its stays deep down inside
because I'm scared to be me

my secret can also be seen
but not if you look from a far
its big, deep and bleeds
lets just call it my crimson star

I'm guessing you no what I'm talking about
what i do to control my sadness
that i wish to be gone
because I'm lost in all this madness

its not something I'm proud of
or something i recommend
because it makes you worse
and after awhile you cant pretend

i do this because I'm scared
because I'm lost and alone
because all my life Ive been torn
and my house is a broken home

i don't really tell anyone
i don't want any pity
they will just tell me to get over it
everyones life is a little bit shitty

i don't do it for attention
or to make people feel sorry
i do it for me and only me
to get rid of my misery