What will never be

My eyes open,
Wanting to see you,
Lying next to me.
But the fact is,
You're not,
You haven't been for months.
Though so much time has passed,
I still can't get used to your absence,
Or the pain in my heart.

It tears at me,
Taking piece after piece,
Of my sanity.
Since you left,
I haven't been able to leave our room,
Or our house.
I guess I still expect you to come back,
To apologize,
And sweep me off my feet.

I sit here hugging my pillow,
Crying tears for all of the times you hurt me,
And the times we were together.
For so long we were happy,
Content with what we had,
Promising we'd never leave each other.
But you broke that promise,
And stole my heart,
Leaving me to deal with the pain alone.

I don't want to do anything,
Except sit here,
Waiting for you.
So that's what I'll do,
SPend the rest of my life,
Wasting away, hoping for what will never be.