As I Lay In My Bed

As I lay in my bed
Thinking
Wondering
Dreaming
I think about whatever crosses my mind
I wonder what my future holds for me
I dream about not being lost anymore
One day I will no longer be lost
I've made many mistakes and plan to make many more
I've learned
I've loved
I've cried
And I've fallen
Along with being beaten and stabbed
Yet I'm grateful
I'm happy to be alive
Even though sometimes I wish I were dead
But who doesn't?
It's everyday life unfortunately
All we can be is thankful
Thankful for all we've gone through
The good
The bad
and the worst