Why her?
I shouted at you,
You just bowed your head,
With shame,
You did not even try and deny it,
Realizing at long last,
The game was up,
It had been going on too long,
With your other woman,
You no longer had a double life to live,
I hoped you would realize how stupid you had been,
How close to losing me you were at that point in time,
You kept telling me you loved me,
But you probably told her that as well,
So how could I believe you?
After all the lies you had been telling me,
The past few months,
All those secret phone calls, secret texts,
You disappearing with no warning,
Me, worrying but,
You always had an excuse,
I hoped you knew I loved you,
But I have been frozen from you now,
Bitterness and hate,
Twisting itself around me,
To me, you did not exist,
Could not get my head around it all,
I thought we were perfect together,
You did not think so did you?
Or you would not be having some fun now,
Would you?
All you had to do was look at me and explain why,
Even that was too difficult,
If you wanted sympathy,
Your getting jack shit from me,
You do not deserve it,
You deserve nothing from no one,
But I feel guilty though,
Leaving you on your own,
Knowing you would not be able to cope,
See, I know this because I love you,
I still do, even through all this,
We have been together to long,
To let this get in our way,
Yet I knew you would do it again,
And it would kill me,
You knew it would,
It is not a game to see how far you can push me,
Before i breakdown, give in or refuse to carry on anymore,
If that’s what you want,
I may seem a pushover,
But if pushed, I will push back harder than you ever could,
And you did not know that,
That is why only your tears are flowing,
Not mine,
What’s the point?
I will only show you im weak, I care,
And you have got to me,
I could not do that,
I have to be strong for myself,
Not for you,
Because you caused me this pain,
You are the joker and i am the ace,
In this pack of cards,
Jokers get in the way and fool people,
Aces are at the bottom but always come out on top,
You tell me it is a one off,
But I know there where others,
And I realise,
I am a fool,
To listen to your self centered lies,
Over and over,
You only care about yourself,
I guess, that is how it is gonna stay,
No one can have your love,
Because you will not give it,
I have tried my best,
But I can not try no more,
I do not have the energy,
So I have decided,
I gave you too many chances,
And you took me for granted,
You should know by now,
That you should not take anything in this world for yourself,
Well it’s about time I got my freedom back,
So, i am going to leave you alone,
To think about what you have just lost,
And I think about what I have just gained,
I was your shoulder to lean on,
Then i moved away and you fell because you were getting to heavy to hold up,
You should think about the pain you have caused,
I am not a player in this game,
Only you are now,
Think about the life you have to lead on your own,
I say my last goodbye,
And im gone,
Leaving you
In the hole you have dug,
To drown in your tears,
And I won’t be giving you a helping hand,
You see,
I have been fooled too many times by you,
But who’s been fooled now then?
