Had enough

I'm counting down the days,
I'm adding up the cuts,
do you even care?
you keep me in this rut.
The amount of times i cried,
and sat there all alone,
how sad is it to feel,
unloved in my own home.
Why did i even bother,
to try and make things right,
I'm emotionally unstable,
to make it through the night.
And still you carry on,
until my mind is weak,
stumbling to the ground,
no strength left in my feet.
Why should i carry on,
living here is tough,
here come the tears again,
and yes I've had enough.
Enough of all the anger,
enough of all the pain,
losing all my sanity,
not knowing what I'll gain.
It's alright for you to say,
stop crying all the time,
but you took away my life,
the only thing thats mine,
how could you be so selfish,
what did i ever do to you?,
stop lying to me all the time,
and telling me what to do.
Can't you see inside me,
are you really blind?,
don't you see this hurting me?,
and screwing up my mind.
So i see that I'm a burden,
your never ending scar,
something that is hurting you,
and effecting who you are,
I've overstayed my welcome,
and outliving your own kid,
maybe you'll look back on this,
and see how sad it really is.
So to save you the hassle,
of messing up my head,
I'll do the death thing for you,
you can be happy now I'm dead.