Lonely gurl

I have all these people around me
but yet I'm so lonely
I'm so lonely on the inside
if only u knew how many tears I've cried
ever since the day I've been broken
4rm the dead i have not yet woken
i just cant wait till the day
when all this pain goes away
my life is a truly living hell
because memories of u just sit around and dwell
i remember those painful memories i once had
how i would cut because i was sad
one day my heart just stopped beating
bcause it was tired of all the love it was giving
and not getting any back in return
i had no where else 2 turn
so i walk on this earth with a soul so numb
and all my feelings r gone
i have no respect 4 myself
its not like i had any 4rm any one else
so here i am in this quiet room
just waiting 4 my doom
in my eyes,around me, i see dark walls
but in reality thats not their color at all
through my eyes i only see dark
even the red scars on my arms are now dark marks