I Promised

I promised myself i wouldn't cry over you
I won't break down
If only you could understand
If only you knew

I'll close my eyes hoping with that the pain may fade
But I'll just open them again
the pain still remains
no progress made

I'll go to sleep to travel to my dreams
In them you notice me
you're with me
I'm happy, there is no pain
and nothing is as it seems

It's when i wake that everything races back to as it was before
why can't my life be as my dreams?
I wake to a dull existance
I can't take anymore

I'll bury my face in my hands
It seems like the only thing I can do
When there is no one out there who truly understands

I promised myself i wouldn't cry over you
But when you're breaking down inside
Sooner or later it will rise to the surface
and crying is all you can do

I can't go on forever in this way
I'll travel back to my dreamworld
Find a way to be there forever
In my dreams is where i want to stay

I don't want to wake up.. ever