Hatred for a mother

I cant believe you walked out on me
you were never there....
i needed YOU when i was a child
needed someone to brush my hair

i was only a kid
when you decided to walk away.
you didn't just leave him
you left me as well that day.

i think about you all the time
wishing you were here
i wish i had my mother back
i wish that she would care.

i needed someone close
when i fell down and got hurt
i just needed a hug...
and someone to wipe away the dirt.

I'm getting older now
I'm just about seventeen
i wonder where my mother is
whats she done, and whats she's seen.

i love you so much
but i hate you at the same time
i cant believe that god
took away something that was mine.

when will you come back
come back, to get me
take me to the places
all the places you have been.

i really miss you
being here by my side
but because your not here
theres a lot of pain i must hide...