Worthless...

As I sit there in the corner
I watch my life falling apart
I cry these crimson tears of blood
Falling from my heart

They're fighting again
I can hear their shouts through the walls
I close my eyes as I pray,
Please Lord, help me through this all

I see no way out of this
The pain is eating me inside
It's becoming too much to bare
Becoming too much to hide

I pick up the knife from the floor,
Staring at its shiny blade
I slowly cut my wrist and watch the blood trickle down
Clearly penetrating with hate

Suddenly I'm calm
I lean back with the knife still in my hand
The numbness flowing through me
Satisfies me like nothing else can

I silently smile to myself
As I cut my arm one more time
The feeling of no emotion
Feels purely sublime

My head becomes cloudy
Pleasantness fills my thoughts
I'm laughing to myself
It feels like heaven I've just caught

Suddenly I hear a crash
Followed by high-pitched screams
The noises of reality
Have awoken me from my dreams

Quickly I pick up the knife again
And I dig deeper into my skin
The numb will keep my fears away
It will stop the pain within

But even as I watch the dark, flowing liquid,
I feel the pain fill up my heart
The same one from the beginning
That's been tearing me apart

Suddenly I drop the knife
Realizing that the numbness won't help heal
The pain that's deep inside me
The one I know now is real

I bury my face in my hands,
Wishing some one would take my life away
I can't deal with this unbearable pain
That I realize is here to stay.