The Painful Truth

I wake up in the morning, put a smile on my face
Hoping that it's enough to get me through another day

As I look at the people around me, I notice them smiling back
They'll never know how my soul decays; how it's slowly turning black

Everywhere I go, people admire me for my smile
But what they don't know is it's not real, not even for a while

My heart is slowly bleeding; I'm dying on the inside
Nobody must ever know, my pain I'll always hide

They don't know how much they're killing me, with shining eyes so fake
They think I enjoy their sharades, but it's their hypocrisy I can't take

Why can't they see how useless it is, living these meaningless lives?
Do they really think it's worth it, all the struggle and the strife?

No, they can't see it, only I know the truth
Their destiny is chosen when they rot away their youth

They're all meant to suffer, and die a painful death
Slowly they kill themselves with every taken breath

I'm aware of all that's happening, reality is tearing me apart
There's nothing left that I can do to mend this broken heart

When no one else is watching I break down on my knees
Blood-stained tears flow down my cheeks as I give the Lord my pleas

"Please, take away this damned life of mine, I don't deserve to live
My broken soul now belongs to you, it's all I have to give"

But never does he listen, because I'm still living everyday
Then I start to realize he intends for me to suffer all the way

I just wish there was more to life, that there was something real
It's just too hard to live this life when pain is all I feel

But I guess it doesn't matter that my wounds are fresh and open
Everything I've become was no longer important once my soul was broken