Angry Tears

To him...

I'm angry at you, why is that so hard for me to say?
i hate seeing you with her, i hate seeing you together everyday.

don't want to listen to your stories, don't want to hear what's wrong.
i don't care, I'm over it, you dragged this on for too long.

why can't i accept? it's over, we're done.
there's no going back, i won't let my heart be won.

i hate that i was so ignorant, i hate that i believed your lies,
i hate the fact that i was to blind to even recognise.

So once again I've come in second place, it's no surprises who came first,
but i guess she was winning all along, but it's hard to decide now who's got it worse.

i built you up to be so great in my mind, to me you were ten feet tall,
but now I'm seeing what you hid from me, and now you seem so small.

You're not who i thought you were, you're simply not all that,
i hated hearing you say "i love you" in that tone so routine and flat.

You never listened, you thought just having you solved my every problem,
but things will start getting better now with my new-found freedom.

Yeah, you hurt me, yes, i cried,
but it was just a phase, I'll take it in my stride.

Give me all you've got, you'll see I'm not so easily beat,
i wish i could hurt you, oh revenge could be sweet.

Don't think that i won't push you down, don't think that I'm too kind,
i hold no more reserve for you, for i am no longer blind.

i am angry at you, I'm just so hurt,
I've had enough of this one-sided effort.

you couldn't even wait a couple weeks,
so now i leave you to the judgement of our peers, as they're our toughest critiques.

I hate this state I'm in, i hate feeling the way i do,
and i don't care if it's your fault anymore, but i'll put the entire blame on you.

i know i may be acting unfairly and i may be cruel,
but tell me, how is this fair on me? when were we ever equal?

so don't try to talk to me, after all you've done,
i know i may have lost you, but i'm trying to tell myself that i've won.

so i no longer give a damn what you do, or if you're there,
but if i'm really over it, then why do i still care?